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Lure of the past

pageThere are some moments that you create..you just imagine them. They weren’t there in the first instance..they are just the creative outcome of your thoughts, aspirations..dreams and then u claim you lost them! You crib of being robbed of them

Im a practical Libran and seldom cry over spilt milk? A watch that was spoilt 2 months after it was bought, a mobile that was lost, a glass that broke, something that was stolen..nothing can bother me beyond a point. I might say a oh and uff! But not more than that. I guess its coz I know they are gone..no amount of worry, panicking or tears can bring them back. Eby at times say its coz I don’t value money. It isn’t that ways, it is coz I value the peace and good moments more I guess. If I cant bring back a mobile that’s lost, there’s no point in crying over it for another 2 days which will result in nothing good!

But there are certain things I cling on to, the silly talks the light walks. The rides before you decide on the destination and endless arguments. Now when these actually happen, you probably wouldn’t notice..I dint as to how beautiful it might appear later. Or was it beautiful in the first place at all? I don’t know whether the pleasure I associate with them actually existed. But I know that now when I’m deprived of such carefree moments, I appreciate and even fret over them more than anything.

Life in a hostel, with pathetic food that was served on your plates after a long queue, the grab for the evening snacks, the last minute realization of semester exams portions..were not one bit beautiful then. But now, they seem so beautiful. We used to eat achaar!! As they was nothing else to eat! But now, apples turn sour!

Somewhere I read nostalgia is a seductive liar. I guess I agree with it. There was nothing great about it then, all the moments I today regret that I lost. But now, when I look back everything seems so charming. Even a simple walk in my backyard seems so tranquil now.

They just did not exist you know, those pleasures I imagine up in every trivial moments in the past! But I fret over the loss of it. It is hilarious! It is insane, but that’s what I do and that is what’s true. I crib with my todays for having deprived me of yesterdays that did not exist. I live till tomorrow just to yearn for this today and this moment which is not so pleasing, but which I will imagine to be splendid! So the cycle continues…

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October 9, 2009 - Posted by | Uncategorized

7 Comments »

  1. Now that is a poetic post, and I am like tht too. But then, maybe because I am a libran too.

    Comment by Ava | October 9, 2009 | Reply

  2. wow this is so well written my dear!!!

    Like you even I do not think about lost things!!! Guess am too practical!!! But memories are something which I cherish because they are mine and can not be taken away from me 🙂

    How are u doing otherwise dear?? Just 2 months right?

    Comment by Smita | October 9, 2009 | Reply

  3. it always happens Verbi…

    what we are going thru may look like tough… but when we look back.. it will be stored as a pleasant memry.. life is like that..

    nice post verbi 🙂

    Comment by kanagu | October 10, 2009 | Reply

  4. So all these happened because you are a libran ????

    I feel the same too but in reverse. When I first came to know about you and this blog of yours, I was like “Aaaah”…then, when I came to know the actual you and the equally notorious Eby, I was like “Oh and Uff”. Iam just hoping for a day, like you mentioned, when these oh and uffs turn out to be pleasant memories !! I am hoping……

    Comment by Vimmuuu | October 12, 2009 | Reply

  5. @AVA – 🙂 and guess what librans are portrayed as over-professional! I dont know from which angle!

    @Smita – yeah..2 more months! time is crawling for a change 😛

    @kanagu – hmmm very true :(.. thanx 🙂

    @Vimmuuu since u want everything in reverse..ill focus in making ur pleasant memories the worst dreams!! buhahahaha il get her contact details smehow! jst wait and see 😛

    Comment by verbivorehere | October 12, 2009 | Reply

  6. @Verbi: What a lovely post!

    @Vimmuuu: vadiyum kondingane nadanno…aarelum kaanumbo appo koduthittu thalum medichondu poikkonam 😛

    Comment by scorpria | October 15, 2009 | Reply


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