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Words and Worlds

I just tripped across this line somewhere – err i dunno for sure if its quoted the same way. Well it just meant that “writing causes social schizophrenia”. Probably at the first look, the line seemed contradicting itself. Does one medium of communication be a block for another medium of communication? But with an afterthought i would hold true this statement.

I may have a bundle of reasons like lonely childhood, confused adolescence and instances of cynicism to relate to the butterflies that flutter in my stomach when i face a new crowd, a strange person. I have often been the mocking lot of my friends for the way i communicate at times. God alone knows the plight of those MBA guys whom i taught for 6 months ;P. 

 

I picked a book during a lonely trip to avoid a conversation and ever since, my handbag has a novel in it! Fretting over a friends forgetfulness made me resort to diaries, for fear of it being thought immature if i actually expressed it. I have been collecting diaries since then. I cook with reckless abandon if i have visitors so that i can confine myself to the kitchen & not actually face them ;P.

If I am to trace to the roots of such behavioural patterns! i think i can dig up to those days when written words were like the first drizzle to me – much awaited, never enough, cherished long after its gone! I fell in a tryst with words – the written pearls. I would sit by my window side in those lazy vacations, the entire upstairs was my kingdom and i would recollect a few famous lines thinking i was the best scholar around, would watch those strech of paddy fields and sit down with a pen & paper and act to myself that i was born to win the booker prize!!

                                                                                                                 

 

There I had discovered a haven! Words – the silent ones that can never criticize me, that can never get bored of my blabberings. I can write as i please, erase and rewrite! Its a world out here, so green that i neednt search any further. Why do i need those loud noises who call themselves words too! They give me back nothing but “out of the world stares” – (my husband still gives me that when he “happens to hear” my nonsense!), those mocking laughs, those cynical smiles!!!

Now can u call tht schizophrenia in any remotest sense? Now dont “call” it if at all u feel to – better write it down i prefer to read than hear it!

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October 12, 2008 - Posted by | myself! |

14 Comments »

  1. Heh heh heh… I quite understand.

    Writers are made, not born. Writing is an art. But it is one such art which can be easily learnt… Thus far, I have never had a chance to experience the ambiance of paddy fields kindling the writer inside me… 😦 Ah well… The writer in me emerges when I want him to… 😉

    “I may have a bundle of reasons like lonely childhood, confused adolescence and instances of cynicism to relate to the butterflies that flutter in my stomach when i face a new crowd, a strange person.”
    — Ah… A clue to the ‘starting problem’? 😉

    Peace. Have a great week!

    Comment by Kartz | October 13, 2008 | Reply

  2. @ Kartz
    yeah not just a “clue” – half the answer ;P.

    Comment by verbivorehere | October 13, 2008 | Reply

  3. Thank you for the blogroll ma’am… 🙂 And ya, blog just updated…

    Comment by Kartz | October 13, 2008 | Reply

  4. Is that a house in Kerala??? and yeah! I hope you win the booker prize one day!!! …….Ok, ok, you are welcome!!!

    Comment by vimal | October 13, 2008 | Reply

  5. @ vimal
    yep kerala – right in the middle of a vast stretch of paddy fields..very close to “nila” 😉
    and wat was the welcome for! it wasnt thanks bt ROFL tht i intended to type for that ‘booker’ stuff ;P

    Comment by verbivorehere | October 15, 2008 | Reply

  6. Ok, the names Vimal. and the welcome was for the ‘thanks for visiting my blog’ statement that I thought you would write.Sigh! 😀

    Comment by vimal | October 15, 2008 | Reply

  7. @vimal
    But.. WHERE IS THE “no problem” statement for the huge “sorry” .i now have in mind? 🙂 I really wanted to thank u for visiting but as u wouldve read abt the schizophrenia..i just was confused if it wud be appropriate!
    Thanks, sorry..oh wait thanks again 😉

    Comment by verbivorehere | October 15, 2008 | Reply

  8. Hehe…nice one!
    So like me 😉
    Damn! I never knew cooking was a good way to hide from guests!! Lemme learn more! 😉

    Comment by scorpria | October 15, 2008 | Reply

  9. @Scorpria
    U can stick to the kitchen ;P and most of them arent interested in tht zone and even if they are, the onions, the chilly powder getting fried might chase them out ;P!when you learn, learn accordingly!
    Dnt stop visiting ma home coz i said ths..i lov the “nice food” comment part of it and will peek out of ma kitchen to hear that for sure 😉

    Comment by verbivorehere | October 16, 2008 | Reply

  10. heyy, thats the title of one of my last months post, right ?

    “Thanks, sorry..oh wait thanks again”.

    LOL 😀

    Iam blog rolling you right away. Btw, “Malayali aano??”

    Comment by vimal | October 16, 2008 | Reply

  11. Love your writings.. keep writing..
    At the end of it all liek some one said before… I am also having deja vu and amnesia at the same time 🙂

    Comment by Sangeetha | October 23, 2008 | Reply

  12. @ Sangeetha – Thanks and im loving ur writings too 🙂 being a verbivore i can tell you that u words are sure as fulfilling as McVeggie Burger is..Hmm Am loving it!

    Comment by verbivorehere | October 23, 2008 | Reply

  13. Hi! I am quite happy to discover that my avid commenter is a very good writer! You do use your words well. If only you had more reviews — maybe on the classics (since you’ve started on it) ,I might like to link some of your reviews to my blog, especially if I feel the same way about the novel. They’ll have to be books I’ve read, though. The reason is I just can’t write reviews on books I’ve read eons ago but I can simply link to those who’ve just read them. Btw, thanks for dropping by my blog. Wishing you success in yours.

    Comment by Johanna | October 30, 2008 | Reply

  14. Johanna – I shud say that’s equal to an award! your comment. To get such a great response from a book reviewer..God I dont deserve it! Thanx a billion. Books yeah ive started my journey to review. Yeah I’m starting on classics..those ive finished.& then.perhaps fill the gap with those that I am currently reading. Thanks for the encouragement..it means a lot.

    Comment by verbivorehere | October 31, 2008 | Reply


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